Didn’t see this coming

Fair warning: This post is long, completely personal and has absolutely nothing to do with design, decorating, color or trends.

Life as we all know is a cycle of both good times and not so good times. Just recently I was thinking about how at the moment I was in one of the good times. Everything is going so well both with my business and my personal life. My kids are “launched”, busy creating a business of their own, living in Boston and supporting themselves. My husband is employed at a job he likes and has the flexibility to work at home. I have what I consider the world’s best friends and I could not ask for better clients. I have the amount of design projects that feels just right and I was invited on two different BlogTours with Modenus and the awesome Veronika Miller. I had the time of my life on both trips and met some of the most inspiring creative people who I am blessed to say are now my friends. Yup, everything was more or less perfect.

Then in an instant my life was completely derailed. Three weeks ago I was blindsided with a diagnosis of invasive breast Cancer….wait what??? I’ve always been the healthy one. I have been eating “clean” since before it was even a thing. I exercise (at least I try to), I’ve never smoked and I do my best to keep stress to a minimum.  I feel great so this must be a mistake, besides, I’m way too busy to deal with Cancer. My mind flashes to two friends, both who died in their 30’s from breast cancer, both leaving toddlers without a mom. I think of my friend Christine who is currently fighting metastatic breast cancer. I think of my Dad who died a slow painful death from lung Cancer exactly 25 years ago this week at the young age of 62, and my Mom who died 17 years later from an equally terrible struggle with brain Cancer. I think, am I going to die? This will destroy my family.  I feel like I can’t breath, I feel sick, I cry.

On the drive home I think about all the things I still want to do. I have never been to Italy, I want to attend Maison and Objet in Paris and swim in Caribbean waters again. I want to visit London and I want to tour the wineries in Sonoma.  I want to go back to High Point with my friends Kim, Kelly, Casey and Jeffery and see all my long distance designer friends. I think of my kids. I want to see them get married and maybe one day have a grand daughter that I can take to the Ritz for tea, and the ballet. Silly things too, like I need to paint the front door and I still haven’t ordered a new sofa for the family room.

I tell my husband, I tell my boys, I tell my close friends.

We meet with the surgeon a few days later. She is calming and very reassuring. She stresses that my Cancer is small and that I am extremely lucky it was caught early. My Cancer is stage 1 (on a scale of 1-4). The initially pathology report from the needle biopsy shows it is a type 2 Cancer (on a scale of 1-3). Not great, but thank God it is not a 3. As long as my margins and lymph nodes are clear I will not need chemotherapy, only radiation.

I try and stay as busy and distracted as possible waiting for the surgery but the word Cancer, becomes an all present loud voice in my head. I am checking out at Whole Foods and the perky 20 something cashier smiles and asks “how are you today”? I smile back just as perky and say “fine thanks”… the voice inside my head screams “I HAVE CANCER!”. I am at the bank making a deposit and the teller asks, “Anything else I can do for you today?” I smile back, “Nope, all set”. The voice screams “YEAH, CAN YOU CURE MY CANCER?”

I had the surgery two weeks ago and the news was the best it could be. Both the margins and the lymph nodes were clear. No chemo needed!!! I tell EVERYONE the good news. My husband brings home champagne, the boys come with my son’s girlfriend. We all celebrate. I feel like I have dodged a bullet. I don’t need to go public with the news because I know radiation won’t be fun but it will have minimal impact on my life and business. I have four days of bliss thinking I am in the clear.

Then we meet with the Oncologist. She is very sorry to have to tell me some unexpected bad news. The final pathology report comes back and the Cancer I have (had) is clearly type 3 (fast growing highly aggressive form).  I need chemo, I will go bald, I will be tired, I will be sick, I will be a Cancer patient. For the second time in just two and a half weeks I feel completely blindsided.  I can’t breath, I feel sick, I cry. This time the news seems even more devastating because I had already told EVERYONE the good news. I can’t bring myself to tell anyone the new bad news. I slowly tell people, everyone is shocked and sad.

In ten days I have Pre-Chemo “class” (I find this quit humorous because I always describe myself as a life long learner). I start treatment a few days after that. It seems somewhat surreal because I feel so healthy yet in just a couple weeks I will be bald, tired and sick. After twelve weeks of Chemo I will then have 6 weeks of daily radiation treatments. It will be almost the holidays until I’m done. I have no idea how I will feel since everyone reacts differently to chemo. My Oncologist says she has patients in their 30’s that can barely get off the couch and patients in their 70’s who hardly miss a beat.

My intention is to stay positive and work as much as possible. My friends, family, and clients have been and are, incredibly supportive. I cut my hair short(er) in preparation of what is to come. I am working like a fiend getting some painting, cleaning and house projects finished before chemo begins. I’m already scheming about how I can turn chemo treatments into a design related blog post. It will be interesting to see what colors they use in the treatment room, hopefully they are uplifting.

So my friends, my next step is a trip with my good friend and wardrobe stylist Susan kanoff to pick out a wig. I’m thinking “short and sassy” might be a good look for me.

short and sassy

But then again…life is short!

3-women-wigs

Enjoy the little things my friends and whatever you do, don’t put off those yearly screening tests!

 

 

88 Responses to Didn’t see this coming
  1. Arleen Jaracz Reply

    Linda, our prayers are being sent your way. We know you are a fighter and can beat this. I have a friend who is battling her second bout of breast cancer..16 years apart..she sets an extremely positive outlook. You are a person of strength and commitment and we are confident that you will do your best to get through this. That being said, if you need someone to be with, talk with, cry with..just give us a call.

  2. Kristie Barnett, TheDecorologist Reply

    Sweet Linda,
    I am so sorry for what you are going through. From what I know about you, I believe that you will handle this with dignity and grace and that you will inspire those who know you and those that don’t yet know you. Blessings and prayers for you and your family – for comfort, for guidance, for peace, and for healing. You are an extraordinary woman and sharing your struggle will only make that more evident. Please know I will be praying for you and cheering you on.
    xo
    Kristie

  3. Arianne Bellizaire Reply

    I am sorry to hear that you are going through this, Linda. I’m also thankful that you were so willing to share so that I and others could be praying for you. Keep your thoughts positive and your heart open to the outpouring of love sure to come!

  4. Kristen Reply

    Linda, you are amazing. I am sorry to hear this news and am sending you the best juju I can think of energetically. Please do not hesitate to call if you need anything. <3 Big hugs. Kristen

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much Kristen. xoxo

  5. Lynda StJ Reply

    My dear friend, I am devastated by your news but your spirit is immeasurable. To wit your potential choice of wigs. You’ve endured before, you will again. Sendings healing thoughts and love your way. BTW, the article was excellent! Hugs.

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Lynda. I will get through this and we will finally have that second lunch date!

  6. Susan Kanoff Reply

    Linda, you have a universe of people behind you on this one…we all love and support you. And by the way, you’ll look gorgeous in any hairstyle. XO

    • Linda Holt Reply

      overwhelming vote seems to be the pink and black wig!

  7. Nirma Reply

    Hi Linda, Curt and I are so heartbroken for you and yet hopeful that the next few months will bring healing and restoration of health. Having watched you these last almost 30 years, we know that you learn everything you can while you are going thru a hard situation then you use the lessons to the max in your next phase of life.
    We will be praying that will be the case here too.
    We love you, NIrma and Curt

  8. Kelly Martin Reply

    Linda,
    I did see this coming from yesterday’s Facebook photo with your new hairdo. I was hoping I was wrong. May you be blessed with an easy time during treatments and a wonderful cancer-free outcome for years to come when it is over. You will be in my thoughts and prayers, Linda. I’ll touch base to see how I can help you during this process. <3 -Kelly

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much Kelly. I am grateful for the comment and offer. xoxo

  9. Jennifer Reply

    Dear Linda
    I’m aching reading your post.
    I know how hard it is to share your personal storybut for me they are the posts that show real strength and power.
    At times I read (while writing my own as well) all of the “chirpy – everything is fantastic and beautiful as can be “posts and wonder if it isn’t all too much of a good thing.
    Writing my own health battle and fathers ongoing battle with Cancer make you stop and realize who your friends are who and what matters. Design can matter but only if it brings you true joy .. Surrounding yourself only with those that want to be positive and loving even when life is a little less pretty.
    Life threw you a curve ball but stay positive. Stay focused on what you want your outcome to be through the moments that seem overwhelming.
    You may fall but you will get back up again ..
    I really hope and pray that your journey and fight will be short and pain free but know you have those that are routing for your and care even though we may not be close or able to hold your hand. Its a virtual hug and support system:))
    Sending healing thoughts your way.
    Jennifer

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Oh my goodness, Jennifer your comment means so much to me. You are correct, I just said this morning while looking at Instagram “everyone has such a beautiful and perfect life”. We all know though how much social media is filtered through rose colored glasses. I decided to go public with my diagnosis because after seeing the outpouring of love and support Christian May was receiving I thought this is so brave of him. I was inspired by his raw honesty and thought maybe someone could benefit from my story who is also facing a heath challenge. Design is a beautiful world we are privileged to be part of but life isn’t always beautiful and bad things happen and people get sick. We need to learn to use social media when required to support one another to get through the challenging and not so pretty times when they arise. Thank you xoxo

  10. Stephanie Aude Reply

    Oh Linda! Let me tell you how much your post means to me! You showed me, six years ago in the depth of my suburban mommy depression years, that EVERYONE’s life story evolves and that we all have profound and fun connections with more people than we would have thought. The brief time we spent as jogging partners was when you were transitioning to a new career, saying goodbye to an old dog, “launching” your sons and I loved hearing about all the possibilities you were creating for yourself. You really inspired me to believe I wasn’t stuck running around with the stupid “pottery barn mommies.” Your insight meant a lot to me. I think about you each time I drive by your house and see your purple door. I always think ONE day I’ll clean my house up enough to invite Linda Holt in and give me her opinion… I know we never see each other — but I love the fact that I can call you my friend. Don’t forget to add Point Clear to your list of places to visit!!! I’m not far away if you need any errands — I’m good for that.

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Stephanie, wow, let me tell you how much your comment means to me! It’s really funny because I also think of you everyday when I drive by your house. I know when I see your Volvo that you are home and I can imagine how grown the boys are now.I drove by Friday on my way home from the hospital and I thought of how much I enjoyed running with you. I couldn’t remembered why we stopped but maybe when this is all done we can start up again. Also, please never feel embarrassed about your home. I honestly don’t judge or care about those kind of things and one thing Cancer will do for you is put things in perspective real quick. A messy house doesn’t even make the list of things to give a second thought to.

  11. Dianne McDermott Reply

    Dear Linda,

    I am so sorry you are facing this. cancer is such a scary diagnosis.

    Just a year ago I finished 5 intensive weeks of radiation that followed an early stage, level 2 breast cancer surprise and surgery.

    I found its so important to trust your medical team. My treatments were at mass gen in Boston and Danvers. I have high praise for them.

    I totally believe that it’s so important to not “own” the disease. It was never and will never be ‘my cancer’. It isn’t part of me any more than a bad tooth. Attract good Heath not disease, by your attitude and words. I know you willl choose health.

    I learned to rely on people and lean on those who care. There are many and come from everywhere. This was hard for me-like you –I worked to get my world settled before treatment started.

    I had weekly reiki treatments during radiation. It helped keep my energy up — I had just started a new job teaching when this hit. I never told my new coworkers or even my boss. Natural healing stuff could help make it just a bit more manageable. You probably already know people who can help. If not I can connect you to the guy who worked on me.

    Ask for prayers and clean healing light.

    I’ll add you to my prayer and healing list. I’ll be with you in spirit. If you need a ride or some company at treatment I’d be happy to be with you. Or if you want to chat 978 394 5166.
    Here’s to you.
    Dianne McDermott

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Oh Diane, I had no idea. Thank you so much for sharing your personal story. I am feeling strong and ready but know it might be a challenge to always stay positive. I’m glad to know you are free from Cancer now and I so appreciate your offer for help xoxo.

  12. Marlene Reply

    As a Stage 1 survivor myself, I’m here if you want to talk. Sending you positive vibes and good thoughts.

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thanks Marlene, I knew you were from some of your FB posts. I will keep you in my back pocket for when I need a pep talk. xoxo

  13. Claire Jefford Reply

    Linda, what an emotional and personal post you have shared. I can only imagine what you are going through and please know that I am sending positive, warm thoughts and prayers your way. Your strength, honesty,and sense of humour is amazing. You seem to have a great support system and a positive attitude which will see you through this devastating and difficult time. Continue to share with us all in your journey. And, I say go for the pink striped hairstyle!! 🙂

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Claire. I might just indeed go for a wild and crazy wig. Everyone tells me one positive outcome of cancer is that you just don’t give a dam what people think and you no longer sweat the insignificant things in life. Both things I need to work on.

  14. Laurie Reply

    Linda,
    Thank you for sharing this. You’re so brave to go public with this news. But I have no doubt that with your determination you will pull through, and along the way, have some great stories to tell. We’re all here for you if you need us.
    Lots of love,
    Laurie

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much Laurie. I am grateful for all the love and support and especially for my Boston designer/BlogTour peeps. xoxo

  15. Kathy Reply

    Linda,

    I’m in shock. Our time in New York is special to me and I wish there was something to say or do to make the news easier to bear. You are a strong, bold, beautiful woman and I’m betting on you beating this monster. Listen to your doctors, lean on your friends, ask when you’re in need. My heart is with you and your family.

    Sending love,
    Kathy

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much Kathy, and without a doubt I will come out on the other side cancer free. I am grateful for meeting you and I too think of NY as such a special time. Especially our “not the Brooklyn Bridge” walk…hehe

  16. Sheila Zeller Reply

    Linda, I have been a fan since meeting you at Maria’s first ever colour course, and I am an even bigger fan now. Your honesty, courageousness and positive attitude are inspirational. I echo Kristie’s comment, and will be praying for you and cheering you on too! And for goodness sakes, take your colour chips with you… I’m pretty sure the decor will be needing you more than you will be needing the room you end up in! Here’s to you Linda Holt!!

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Sheila. The feeling is mutual and I laughed at your comment but boy wouldn’t that shake them up in the chemo room if I start color matching! I think I will do it!

  17. Pam Koudelka Reply

    Dear Linda, I will keep you in my prayers and also send those positive thoughts coming your way. You know you have those messages of HOPE right in your pocket all the time. Friend to friend, I am here for you.

    Pam

  18. SuZanne Crosby Reply

    My Dear Old Friend Linda,
    We go back many years, and I knew you before the boys when you were already eating disgustingly healthy. I’d feel guilty around you. We just shared birthdays recently, and I’m glad we did. I got a new knee on mine, and you’ve been fighting for your future on yours. Proud of you girlfriend! Your coming out will help you many others. Make sure you keep us informed. There is a lot of love out here in the universe for you and your family. Kudos to you Linda

  19. Sue Reply

    Sending you Love, Light and a Big Hug, Linda!

  20. Paula Reply

    Dear Linda.. I am so very sorry to hear this news. I have always admired your grace and strength and I know you will get through this, with the many people who care about you supporting you. I’ll be thinking of you daily.. Much love .. Paula

  21. Kathleen DiPaolo Reply

    Oh sweet Linda! I am sorry, but you are such a tiger! Your fighting spirit and designer ability to see beauty will help you get through this! Easy? Hells no, but you have a slew of us who will be there for you! I will pray for your recovery and will know that your smile will invite new friends who will help you on this journey! Love and hugs, Kath

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much Kathleen. It means the world to me to have all this support. Maybe I am just in denial or maybe I am just naive but I have no doubt I will be totally fine and Cancer free by the end of treatments.

  22. Claudia Reply

    Linda,
    I am a 13-year breast cancer survivor. Your treatments sound similar to mine. I never lost a day of work throughout and I’ve never looked back. You will get through this – there is life after breast cancer!

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Claudia. These are the stories I want to hear!

  23. Tam Stone Reply

    Linda,
    My heart is breaking and I am crying. I rarely check Facebook, yet when I logged on tonight your post was my first in my newsfeed. I was supposed to see this and I am so glad that I did. You will beat this… you just have to! I need you! We all need you! If anyone has the inner strength and fortitude to conquer this it is you. I am sad you are going through such pain and fear. And, I hope you know that I am here anytime, any day, for anything big or small… and I say that in all truth. You know I managed to get to The MET by 10:30am from central Missouri every Thursday morning for 16 weeks. Boston seriously can’t be any trickier. You are in my prayers and I will be following and supporting you on this journey. … May all your treatment rooms be filled with abundant blogging material. Love & many hugs, TAM

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Tam, you are a special friend. Thank you for all the kind words. I promise you I will beat this and I am excited to see you at High Point in April. I will be healthy and happy and Cancer free!

  24. Tina Gleisner Reply

    Linda, I am so sorry to hear about your latest challenge although I firmly believe you will conquer this like all of life’s challenges. My thoughts & prayers are with you, and here’s a website (NH based) that you might find helpful … http://www.breastcancerstories.org/stories/share.aspx

  25. Jeanne Chung Reply

    Linda-
    Iam so sorry to hear about what you have recently been going through. The one thing you have going for you is that you are a fighter and you don’t take no for an answer. I can’t imagine what undergoing treatment is like, but if I know you, you will be redesigning the space multiple times in your head- with a different theme and color palette every single day. I look forward to hearing about your progress and look forward to meeting up with you before long in High Point and Las Vegas . Your design posse is rooting for you and sending positive energy your way. Big hugs to you, my friend- we are all here for you and are with you along the way!!! XO

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Jeanne. Yes, High Point and Vegas baby! Looking forward to it!

  26. Laurel Bern Reply

    Hi Linda,
    I’m completely shocked and saddened to hear this. But it seems to be happening with alarmingly frequency. Thank you for sharing. I admire that a lot. Do you know the beautiful actress from House Hunters, Suzanne Wang? She had stage IV and she beat it. Got rid of it all. Total remission. If you know her, she’s screamingly funny with a mouth that would make a sailor blush. Who knew? She made this very funny rap song. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lScIpP6NNE. Well, I just wanted to let you know that I’m joining the throngs that are here to support you in any way we can. much love, Laurel

  27. Anya Jensen Reply

    Dearest Linda, I am so sorry to hear your sad news. My prayers are with you and your family in this time. I know you will fight this with everything you have. I was lucky to have the best time (and biggest laugh) on Blogtour with you, and I hope to see the Brooklyn bridge with you some day in the future. Many hugs from Denmark.
    A xx

  28. Barbara Elza Hirsch Reply

    Sending you prayers and a gigantic hug, Linda! This totally sucks: your post really moved me. I always love bumping into you ar events, your smile and genuine energy are such a pleasure…I’m rooting for you!

  29. Tobi Fairleu Reply

    oh Linda, I’m so sorry that you have to go through treatments but I just know you will come out of it healthy and with an even greater zest for life. You have inspired me for years now. You’ve been going after your dreams with amazing courage and success and I know this process will be no different. Wishing you an easy road ahead with your treatments, praying for your health and as little pain and sickness as possible and looking forward to seeing your beautiful, smiling face very soon. Thanks for being an amazing inspiration to me as an creative entrepreneur and now as a woman who will soon be a cancer survivor! Much love to you my friend! Xo, Tobi

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much Tobi. I look forward to taking a repeat photo of the two of us in the C.R. Laine show room next April. I will be Cancer free and from what I am told…more focused, driven and determined than ever before (and hopefully with a little bit of hair)!

  30. Lisa Mende Design Reply

    Thinking of you Linda! I will pray daily for your recovery. You can do this! Keep those positive thoughts coming! oxoxo

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Lisa. Thoughts of what you have gone through and how you have over come adversity has actually been an inspiration to me as I face this journey. xoxo

  31. Kelly Reply

    Linda you have always been my inspiration to go for my dreams. You always take things by the horns and show how things can be done. I feel my words are not enough- I have been in tears all night. Love you my friend and I am still looking forward to one of our fun lunches again soon. If you need anything, you know I am not far. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Kelly. Everyone has told me that Cancer makes you realize what is really important in life and for me it’s family and friends. You are among that group and we will definitely have that lunch.

  32. Susan Siefer Reply

    My Dear Linda, You have written this blog as you do everything in your life: with honesty, wit, determination, grace and talent. The treatment room at N/W will never be the same. You pick the colors, I’ll paint! I knew I moved here for a reason. You have a universe of support and you will be traveling the world before you know it. I still can’t get over the dresser!! Love, Susan

  33. Monique Johnson Reply

    Dear Linda,
    My thoughts and encouragement of strength are with you during your journey of conquering this diagnosis!!!! You’ve been on my mind a lot for the past few weeks and I have mentioned you countless times regarding all the help you have given me in picking the right colors for our home. Thanks for sharing your personal moment with all of us, we all want to support in any way that we can!

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Monique. I apologize you had to read about this is a blog post but I was just too overwhelmed to start making phone calls. I will be fine and we will all celebrate when it’s over.

  34. Lisa Mende Design Reply

    You are never alone my friend. If you need me I’m always here! (704) 964-3880

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Lisa. That means a lot to me.

  35. Nancy Powell Reply

    Dearest Linda- wonderfully written and of course I am devastated about your news. Like so many of my friends who have beaten this- be brave and rely on us friends to help you through it! Go ahead and scream and cry and call me (703-368-7030) even at a low point- I would like to show you what a true friend I can be. Much love and prayer to you and sending hugs and buckets of strength. love, Nancy

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Nancy, I truly value your friendship.

  36. Susan (Sparkle) Parkhurst Sudia Reply

    Linda – Thank you for sharing such a personal journey. I can not imagine what is racing through your head every second of every day. My thoughts and healthy vibes are being sent your way.

    After I read your intimate blog, I thought back about the last time we spent time together. I was living in the room next to you at the sorority house. As I thought about those times, what came to me what how I looked up to you at that impressionable period of my life, Even though Deb R was my big sister. I so looked up to you for your consistent strength, and smile. Even some of the worst day in Vermont….You were always at the breakfast table with a smile on your face and a great word of promise for the day to everyone. I so wanted to have your strength and happiness.

    Though I know that this is a tough diagnosis …..remembering who you were back in the good ole days, I KNOW that you will weather this like a champ. I am now in Denver after a few setbacks myself….at every turn I remember you and your strength of character and fortitude, what I tried to emulate over the years. You have helped me so much. If there is anything I can do to help in any small of big way….I am here for you….always…
    With Love,
    Sparkle

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Hey they Sparkle! How could I ever forget those fun times back in college. Seems like a life time ago but then again, just like yesterday. Thank you for taking the time to comment and I know without a doubte I will be fine once this treatment is over. Xoxo

  37. Kathy Spencer Reply

    Linda,
    I am so so sorry to hear this. I wish I knew the words to make you feel better. You are such a special person and have done so much for so many. If there is anything I can do for you please let me know. I am right around the corner and can do your errands on the days you don’t want to deal with the bank or cashiers or if you just want a hug.

    I also think you should go for the pink hair, you have always loved a splash of color!

    <<>>>
    Kathy

  38. Nancy Norris Reply

    Linda, As a new client, I have not known you for long but you are just one of those people that I love being around. You have a wonderful joyful spirit and just project warmth and fun. This is a really tough time for you but please know that everyone that knows you is sending you prayers and very positive energy. I so admire your courage and your willingness to share this with your friends. Your openness and honesty are truly gifts to all and will return to you 10 fold. Hugs to you and your family, Nancy Norris

  39. Peggy Nolan Reply

    Hi Linda – we know each other through mutual friends. I’ve been where you are. I’m 11 1/2 years out. Lost a breast. Had chemo. radiation. Reconstruction, not once but twice. Call, message me, or send a smoke signal. I know what you’re going through. I can listen. I can help.

    xo
    Peggy

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Wow, Peggy I had no idea. Thanks for reaching out offering a shoulder to lean on.

      • Peggy Reply

        I also chose bald. And red lipstick and big hoop earrings. I got dressed up for chemo. I’m here. Anytime.

  40. Dawn Hearn Reply

    LInda,

    My thoughts and prayers are with you!

    Dawn

  41. Siobhan Farrer Reply

    Linda,
    We met in Seattle almost two years ago. I’ve been following your journey since then and have greatly admired all you’ve accomplished with your business and blog.
    In our brief encounter, you where genuinely positive and fun.
    I just know you will attack this hurdle with those same attributes plus the strength it took to accomplish so much, including sharing this personal challenge.
    I will keep you in my prayers. Sincerely, Siobhan Farrer

    • Linda Holt Reply

      That was such a fun time Siobhan with you and Jil MacDonald. Thank you so much for your comment and kind words.

  42. Betsy Reply

    Linda,
    I am so sorry to hear what you have gone through and what you will be going through in the coming months. I have always admired your strength, energy, enthusiasm, and positive outlook. I will keep you in my thoughts every day and send positive energy to you to help you heal quickly and completely.

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Betsy. I appreciate that.

  43. Sheila Reply

    Thank you for sharing the reality that you are living right now. I hesitated to respond but felt compelled to let you know that there are many survivors out there.When first diagnosed, our brains think of the worst possible outcomes, including those who have died from cancer. Well, there are many more that live! I am living proof. I was diagnosed almost 5’years ago with a nasty, triple negative invasive breast cancer. You can and will make it through treatment and hair loss. Choose to find one thing to be grateful for each day — it will buoy you through the rough times. And if you are schlepping into Boston for treatment, you are in good hands, but remember,; you are your own best advocate. Sending you lots of bright healing light.

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much for commenting Sheila. I am so grateful for all the support and encouragement I have received from sharing my individual story. I know I will have 100% recovery.

  44. Martha Orellana Reply

    hi Linda, just read this post and it only confirmed what your hair cut post alluded to. I was hoping it was just a style post. Life does change in seconds as your eloquent and touching post revealed. Our hopes and good wishes are with you always. You will kick this and be stronger afterwards. You are such a centered and amazing person, that I know I can look forward to a MODENUS blogtour with us enjoying some wonderful spa treatments – and thus your life changes again – in a second. This change will be a triumphant one! Hugs and hugs and more hugs, can’t wait to see you again,
    Martha & Susan

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much Martha. I am using that image of reuniting on another BlogTour as a goal toward health! I look forward to giving you the biggest hug when it happens!!

  45. Kate Lamanna Reply

    Linda, You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope for a speedy recovery. Best wishes, Kate.

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    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Deborah xoxoxo

  47. Joan Johnston Reply

    Wow, Linda. I only just read your blog today. What a nightmare for you. Good thing you’re not afraid of the dark and you’ll be able to wake up from the scary nightmare and bask in the sunshine of a healthy life real soon. I will pray for you and your family daily and send healing thoughts your way. I would be honoured to help you in any way that you need..rides, cleaning, shopping, typing, you name it….I’ll help. That’s what “Sistas” do in times of trouble. Please contact me Anytime….I really want to help. My cell is 978-809-4904, just text or call. I’m sure you and Susan will find a stunning wig to make you feel wonderful just like the person you are! Take care…..you’ll beat this!

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you so much Joan. I am grateful for your offer of help and will definitely be in touch. Xoxo

  48. Irene Turner Reply

    LInda, Brava Lady. I don’t know you, but have hovered with mutual friends via our virtual community. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I do know that it will be of great help…all the prayers and blessings that you will receive. Just know that when you are through the tunnel…I would like to help you explore my home, Sonoma County and taste some of the best wines in the world! I look forward to meeting you in the flesh and giving you a welcome to West County hug in person. In the meantime, Cheers to a fighting spirit and the support of all those you love along your road to complete recovery. You can do it!
    XO Irene Turner

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Irene! That is a wonderful offer and something I will visualize to get me through the next few months. I will look forward to toasting with you on the other side of treatments.xoxo

  49. Karen Reply

    Linda, sending a big virtual hug to you with lots of positive thoughts of a fast and easy treatment and recovery! xx

    • Linda Holt Reply

      Thank you Karen!

  50. Donna Frasca Reply

    Linda, positive thinking is key! My Dad had a stage 4 cancer and that was 14 years ago. He’s 87 now and still going strong and cancer free. He is always positive and says he’s “Fantastic”. Choose a fun wig, I say go red and keep the word Fantastic in your daily vocabulary. You can do this.

  51. Barbara Hirsch Reply

    Dear Linda,

    I am so sorry to hear this. I admire how bravely and eloquently you shared this personal information on your blog. I don’t know you very well, but I always enjoy bumping into you and chatting with you at professional events: I love how genuine & friendly you are. I am planning on bumping into you for many more years as I trust you will beat this! My prayers are with you. No one deserves this diagnosis 🙁 Please know all your designer colleagues are rooting for you!! Sending courage and a big hug,
    Barbara

  52. Merit Reply

    Dear Linda, know that someone across the ocean, in Finland, will be sending you lots of warmth and healing thoughts. Your courage and calm way about you will help you through this I know. Don’t be afraid to lean on all your friends who have offered help and support. I would too, if I was still in Massachusetts.

  53. Dana Reply

    You’ll be in my prayers and hope the treatment time goes quickly for you and as smoothly as possible. Thank you for sharing – as soon as I read your post, I scheduled a check-up for myself. Even though I have friends going thru this also, I have been spectacularly bad at putting off my own checkup. Thank you for the kick in the rump I needed.

  54. Jil McDonald Reply

    As pissed off, saddened and shaken, as I am to hear this, one thing rings true…
    you HAD cancer.
    It’s now gone.
    All this chemo and radiation, is to just ensure nothing new comes along.
    It’s crappy, and it’s unfair, and I’m mad for you – but it’s already gone.
    It’s gone.
    Please keep that in mind, this doesn’t diminish the angst, the emotional pain, the treatment, but it helps put things into perspective.
    Sending you unending light, love and prayers for peace .
    After this, the best is yet to come. xoxoxo

  55. suzanne hermes Reply

    Oh, Linda! I am crying! I have adored our few times together! You are and will continue to be a remarkable person! You will beat this! Sending prayers and love your way and may my tears wash away some of your pain.
    Big hugs!
    Suzy

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